Friday, February 25, 2011

Only a few more days

The day I have been oh so impatiently awaiting is almost here. I have my report time now too :)

The old people, aka my grandparents, got in today. They came in to watch the kids for the first few days.

I am still following the liquid diet, cheating here and there but I'm ok with it. I have found Jamba Juice Strawberry Nirvana with added protein to be a new favorite, of course after surgery I won't be able to drink that any time soon but its ok with me.

I am now down 10 lbs 4 oz! I am so anxious to finally lose ALL the weight and just be a nice healthy size, where I can wear all the cute, non-fat girl sizes.

I do have to be honest, sometimes it really bothers me that I know so many people my age that can just eat whatever they want to eat, whenever they want to and never gain a single pound. It's frustrating to know that is not how my body works.

My hubby has been great, reassuring me that I can do this surgery and I will succeed. The support group has been awesome too, calling me daily to see how I am holding up. THe days before surgery are some of the hardest, knowing I am going into surgery AGAIN is stressful, knowing I will be out of commission for awhile is stressful, knowing that my body is about to go through some drastic changes is stressful. I know I am doing the right thing though, I have to do this for myself, for my family too.

So here we go people. Next time I post again I will be sleeved!

Sunday, February 20, 2011


So Im just going to come clean here.

I totally cheated today.

I've done awesome on my liquid diet, I haven't been getting enough protein but I did finally find an unflavored I could use in pudding so it works great. I've lost 7 1/2 lbs since Monday.

I probably just gained it all back though lol.

Ya see, I had this giftcard for the Cheesecake Factory that one of my favorite people sent to me and well, it was just staring at me, I kept thinking of the yummy salad and pizza *drool*. So I talked my husband into taking us there for dinner tonight. I totally was going to talk him into it anyways, even before i had gotten the gift card though so that just helped me win my case lol.

The weird part...I didn't even want cheesecake. So not typical of me at all. I love the Carrotcake Cheesecake, oh and they used to have this German Chocolate Cheesecake that was just to die for, but I didn't want it. Weirdo me just wanted pizza and salad ha.

So now I'm back on track. That was my cheat.

I've had nothing else to eat today so Im sure my calories are probably still on the low side. All I will have the rest of today is water, since I'm totally stuffed.

Soooo back to the diet I go, and guess what! ITS ALMOST SURGERY DAY!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Day 1-Liquid Pre-op


That pretty much sums up the day.

I know this will be tough, but it's for a good cause. I need to get to experimenting with protien drinks.

I took all my measurements today and my starting weight. I will weigh again the day before or the day of surgery, haven't decided which yet.

The meatloaf I am cooking for the family tonight smells SOOOOOOOOO good. I want to just open up that oven and eat it all lol. Meatloaf happens to be one of my favorite things. I intended to cook it yesterday so I could have a meatloaf sandwich for lunch but it just didnt happen and I had to use the meat today. Ahhhh the things we do for our family.

I have not had much today, about to go experiment with a protein shake, the biggest problem is that my ice maker is not working!!! I planned on making lots of smoothies, well they just arent the same without ice!!

ANyways, today I have had
Carnation Instant Breakfast with fat free milk
Decaf coffee with 2 Tablespoons of Vanilla Creamer
6 oz of Light Blueberry yogurt

Yeah thats not a lot of food.

Monday, February 14, 2011

theworldaccordingtoeggface: Valentine's Day Giveaway

Another awesome giveaway from one of my favorite blogs! I am so thrilled to have found this blog with my upcoming liquid diet and WLS! So many super great recipes to keep me from starving to death ;)

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Sunday, February 13, 2011

Trying not to spaz

So Im getting nervous. Not about the surgery though. I am nervous about the liquid diet.

Yes that sounds stupid.

But I'm fat. And I like to eat. Which is partly why I am fat.

So telling me I cannot have food, kinda sucks!

I think I've got the main drinks I will have over the next several weeks. Broth, protein powders, carnation instant breakfast, jello, etc.

I'm praying by the time I have the surgery I will be used to the liquid diet so it won't be as much as a shock. I hope the head hunger will be gone by then too. And the carb cravings *sigh* I will miss my bread.

I'm sure by the time I can eat real food again I will be sick of all liquids lol. Really, its going to be about 2 weeks pre-op, 4 weeks post-op, 2 weeks of mushies, then I can introduce real food. So basically 2 months of a liquid diet.

But I am ready, well as ready as I can be to get this process going. I WILL NO LONGER BE FAT SOON! WOOHOO!

Anyways, since tomorrow is the last day before the liquids begin, I am going to pig out. I am going to my favorite coffee shop probably twice tomorrow ;) I will be making a meatloaf tomorrow too so I can have my beloved meatloaf sandwich for lunch. Then for dinner, we will brave the crowds while a friend watches the kids and hit up Outback Steakhouse for dinner. I can just taste the bloomin onion now ;)

So wish me luck. I am sure I will be back in the next few days to complain.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

I have a surgery date!!

The group I had been going to all said it would take at least 2 weeks out from my shrink appt before I would be scheduled to meet with a surgeon. The day after my appt, I got a call from surgery asking if I could be there Friday morning. UM YEAH! Of course I would be there

I was terrified going into the appt, hoping I would like the doctor since he is not the one I orginally wanted. Well his intern started to scare me a bit. He was suggesting that I might be better off with the RNY. NO WAY did I want that surgery and my family would have flipped if I switched to it anyways. He was going on and on about how I could lose 10% more of my weight, well no thank you, at my weight its not worth the addition risks to lose a few extra lbs.

So he went off to get the doctor, now I had read up on him already, everyone said he was a great surgeon but had a bad bedside manner. What do I care about that though?? All I care is that he knows what hes doing. Well I thought he was great. He is very direct, he doesnt sugar coat things, which is great! I appreciated that he was so straight forward with his expectations of me and what I can expect from him too. He is very conservative in his treatment and repeatedly told me if I have any issues post surgery to make sure to contact him ASAP and not to play the waiting game with anything. He is also putting me on blood thinners for 30 days. Normally he only has patients with my BMI do it while in the hospital and saves the blood thinners at home for patients with a BMI over 50 but because I had issues with clotting in pregnancy with no known cause (all my labs for clotting and autoimmune disorders were fine) he thinks its best to just play it safe and do 30 days worth. I really did like him and felt totally at ease with the surgery once I left my appt.

Most the doctors at the hospital only require a 1-3 day liquid diet pre surgery but he requires 2 weeks sooooo now Im trying to prepare myself for that. Im going to start it on the 15th because there is no way Im starting it on Valentines day lol.

Ive started buying protein drinks, bought AMP today to try, hoping its not too terrible, especially since its on sale at GNC right now

ANyways, my surgery is this month!!!! YAYYYYYY!!!!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

YES! I'm sane ;)

Contrary to popular belief, I am not crazy woohoo!

I FINALLY had my final mental health eval. I was booked for a 90 minute appt. I was out of there in 15 minutes.

Oh yes, people, that means I am not crazy enough to need the whole 90 minutes LOL!

Despite my confidence that I would pass the eval, the night before the appt I started to get a little nervous. My best friend quickly assured me that I was nuts and would be committed haha.

So I went in for the appt totally on edge. The doctor thankfully had a sense of humor so that put me at ease. He started out asking if I had any questions. SO I asked what in the world was with the crazy questions on the test. He laughed, then explained that its to catch people who are "people pleasers". Ya know the type that will say they love everything even if they dont just to make you happy. So it makes sense.

He asked a few questions about the surgery I want, basically trying to get a feel if I knew what I was getting myself in to and how to handle the changes.

Please. I have been researching for months at group meetings and online. I'm ready.

He then went over my test results, even showed them to me. The only thing I scored "high" on was health concerns. Um duh, IM having weight loss surgery for a reason lol. He said that was totally expected.

He said there was nothing concerning on my test or our in person meeting and he feels I will be very successful given my determination to get healthy and get this stuff moving!

So now I wait. Again.

The psychologist will write up his report by the end of the week, he will submit it to surgery and to my bariatric case manager. Then I can call and schedule my consult with the surgeon and get my date set.